DREAMING WITHOUT WINGS

I know. Life is full of choices.
And my life, is only once. And it is full of choices within its episodes.
My life, has thousand journeys and episodes.

Every single time when I jumped into new episode of my life, I had been faced onto choices.
Which one should I pick. Which one should I take.

But the only and only reason to choose is : LOVE
Love for my soulmate, love of my kids, love of the journeys that had been past.

Life, is not easy.
Life, is also not hard. Once, I heard about: just make it simple, don't play to hard with your self.
Then if now I choose to simplify it, am I wrong?
I want to eliminate the one that make me not comfortable, since I know it makes everybody not comfortable.
But of course, as always, it is not that easy. Not as easy as it written here.

Beyond all of those, I have dreams.
Now the dreams are so close to reach but still too far to touch.
All against each others, dreams and life should be.

Now the only thing I could is dreaming, without wings..


**lying on confession,
wind

LIA AFIF ONLINE BOUTIQUE

Now available!!!

LIA AFIF ONLINE BOUTIQUE

Our collection is about to give you to luxurious performance, especially for moslem women.

Lia Afif, young designer from Surabaya, bring new era to moslem fashion with collaborate tribal design and mix-cut from many. It is amazing to have and collect!!

Please check it out, and we will assist you well to have your outfit bring to your home.

Dont forget to visit us...

Minetta Lane

MINETTA LANE
Tommy Page / L. Russell Brown

In the middle of the village on a cold winter night
The only street around with no one in sight
I kissed you on your face
a tear drop came
there on Minetta Lane

I remember it like it was only yesterday
It's so strange how time slips away
Been so long since we felt the flame
There on Minetta Lane

Whatever happened to love sweet love
did it fade away and die?
My heart still cries for you, longs for you
this song's for you
Wherever you are tonight

Whatever happened to love sweet love
did it fade away and die?
My heart still cries for you, longs for you
this song's for you
Wherever you are tonight

In the middle of the village on a cold winter night
Only street around, no one in sight
I'll never walk that street
cause it's not the same
without you on Minetta Lane

from Tommy Page's website.

What did you imagine when you heard this song..?
When I first heard this, I just fallen in love to this song.
All swing out in my mind. What the Minetta Lane could be like.

A snow fall, during winter. Come into a river with one beautiful bridge curving in top of it..
People walking around in cold, but it was lovely. Tree without leaves, alone and bright.
This what I thought and always picturing my mind when hear this song.

But today I just find out the Minetta Lane. And absolutely washout all pictures before.
But it is more beautiful.
And I sing the song once again..


jasmine park, 08.50, 25nov08
again alone

Good Morning

Morning is about very crunchy time in my life.
When those two little kids should be prepared to school, everything need to be prepared soon.

The milk, for both of them. Stir with love.
The lunch boxes. Need to prepare well so they just ready to eat it easily, especially for my little Ica.
The shoes. Tiny tidy shoes there should be.
The uniforms. Sometimes got little Alzheimer for decide what should they wear today. Yes, there is a schedule.
But thousand schedule running out in my mind..


But, nothing compare than see them smile and give me their big hug. Just in time when they need to go to school.
It is adorable. When you see your kids growing bigger and nicely.
Make me wonder about time that already gone when raise them up.
I thought that I was wasting too much time without loving them properly. Generously. And also most important is to love them with all my heart.

I realize now that all I have to do, is loving them in much...



semarang, nov25th 2008
alone

JUST IF I COULD..

just if I could
back and turning time
I would come to that place
when we first met

just if I could
seeing you formerly
I would love you from that time
I would adore you since that time

just if I could
touch you earlier
I would carry you always
I would keep you in my heart

just if I could
turning back all my time
I would not throw any second
for loving you from beginning

just if I could
I would hold you forever

but it is time carry us here
till we like these times
love is suddenly come
because we has been written
in that big book
because when we met
before time
we might be won't
like we do here now
carving life together
carrying love together
because I always love
and I always do

to you
just
just if I could
just if I knew
that you are my truly love

just if I knew from the past
I would not wasting my time
with other love

but thank you
for always being here
today, these times
with me
because I love

I love you, One..

MASJID AGUNG JAWA TENGAH di SEMARANG

Two weeks ago, I had a chance to visit Masjid Agung Jawa Tengah. That I saw at TV. It was so beautiful, for the first time I saw the scenes on my television. Then, I walked around in the real sculpture. Some differences came up...

This is the mosque when you see it frontally. Six white and tall umbrella, is enable to opened. Really. For protecting the jamaah from rain when it happened. I just feel it not quite beautiful with those things. But, yeah. Still gorgeous.


Stairs to go. It is when you turned around your self after watching that mosque. So you can walk into the garden. There is a prasasti over there, I wondering myself what it is..

Fia was taking a sort of thinking. Should she go there or not. But she was eager to see what is there. And we found...

.... a stone. Surrounded by a pool with fishes inside. But, poor them, not quite clean. Oh hi people, why you just taking lot of your trash, and leave them there..?? Most of the ceramics is broken as well.. bad. Not as good as it looks from faraway..


One interesting joglo I found. Place of BEDUG. Surrounding by pool as well. It has stairs goes up, and in the way back too. And one more time. Not clean. Let's say, it is like untreated well. Just, I feel bad about it. Too much trash, and no body is have any concern to pick them up and throw away to trash can. Which are available..


The right side of yard. Wide. But has been used for remote car rental, hah, so ugly. The toys is so so degrading the dignity of the mosque. I just not taken the picture of those rental toy car. I just hate it..

The beautiful circle gate. So incredible when we see it from below. And so right the sunset was almost there. So I try to pick some pics of it..


From another angle...



Closer. But you might see the basement. It is a parking lot. Hm. I just.. just.. cannot think of it...


Getting darker. Getting better. Incredible shadows. Incredible architecture, indeed. But shame for not care of it...

OUR FAVORITE MOSQUE

We have one place for rest when we have trip back to Surabaya, or going back to Semarang.
It is our favorite place, because we can stay longer there, resting, walking, breathing, and also praying to God. Wishing for another miracles. And also praying for good and safe trip, way go and back home....

This is the name of the favorite place. Baitunnur, Masjid Agung Pati, Jawa Tengah.
Beside the location, the place, I myself adore the architecture. It makes me so little in front of my Creator. I just feel so much hollow so I can easily reach my alfa level to connect to Him.
It is so cool, the floor, the feeling, the air... you will never found it anywhere.



Mihrab. When we take our pray, we should face to Qiblat. And place of Imam, the one who lead the sholat, called Mihrab. In this mosque, the mihrab so beautiful.
Inside the mosque. Could you feel it? It is oh so yes. So you. Only you and your Creator...

This mosque have an unique identity. When we want to take wudhu, we should be walking on stone-river, which is connected the side terrace to wudhu's place, men and women. On the ground of this river, is placed lot of massage stones, with very cold water. You would enjoy to walk in there..
This is the wudhu's place for man..

Upstairs, another woman place for pray. Surrounding with cubes wall, and symbolic windows. It is a void in front of it, so we might able to see the Mihrab.

Baitunnur Tower. With its front facade. Modernism with Islamic Architecture, which is correlated with symbols, repetition, and simplicity.

The front terrace, so wide. Most people always give up to attraction of laying down here. A minute, and then comes to another minutes, then it will never stop until we realize that we still have another half way to go...

The side terrace. Place of sleep as well. Too bad. But we often see that. I just believe that mosque is not kind of hotel. You must realize that we cannot, and not allowed to sleep at mosque..


..... and this one. Below stairs is the most comfortable place for sleep. No distractions, no sunlight, full of shadow. What a dream could be..


BEDUG. For calling you when sholat time arrives. Adzan time. So don't deny it. Take your wudhu and move on..!!

Look at the floor. It is shining. It reflected you. Your badness. Your evil. Your kind. Your wide heart. It is all there..

The fence. Front railing. Repetition as well. As the Islamic Architecture should be. Symbolic and repetition.

The mosque's pattern of front yard. The grass which between the ground. Keep repeat. After and after..

Repetition on the rooster, partition of walls between room in this mosque..

The high ceiling. This pic is taken by my beloved husband from the floor...


The window architecture. No starts and no ends. It is another repetition and circling concept..


The other window. Vice versa. Back to another. Sharp and light. Going to one point, and you will able to reach it if you try. Trust me..


But, at the end... still have to go. Back to where we start, and going to chase our destiny..